Half Of All Marriages End In Divorce- Were We Just Lucky?
Both of us were raised in what most Americans would call a Christian
home. We were taken to Sunday School and church regularly, and we
had both finished the Catechism classes offered by our religious denomination.
We met in 1975, and began a normal dating relationship. This included
breaking up for a short time in order to date others, but consummated
with us getting married in 1978.
Shortly after our wedding day, we entered the normal American rat
race for material possessions. After nine months of marriage we bought
the American dream home. Unfortunately, with the American dream home
came the American dream home monthly payment. This monthly payment,
coupled with our continued desire for material possessions, led to
us working five jobs between the two of us. Looking back now, we can
see that divorce was on the horizon if something didn't change - and
it did.
Our lifestyle became cramped when our first child was born. Susan
had to go back to work for us to keep our house and our "toys".
I remember well meeting the couple that was about to watch our little
girl. The baby-sitter, Debbie, and her husband, Dan, stood out in
a peculiar way: no smoking, no drinking and no television. They kept
a neat house, they were polite, and they appeared to be people we
could trust with our daughter. I remember leaving their home and telling
Susan, "I'd rather have someone overly religious watching our
child than a soap opera addict that smoked and
swore."
As time passed, Susan noticed Debbie reading and studying her Bible.
Debbie began asking Susan questions and one day she opened her Bible
and showed her John, chapter 3, verse 3: "Except a man be born
again, he cannot see the kingdom of God". We had both been fairly
religious, but we did not understand the need to be "born again."
(Note: "born again" is a biblical concept referring to the
forgiveness of sins by God and the rescue of the person from the power
and penalty of that sin. This is God's requirement for everlasting
life.)
In the meantime, our little girl was starting to repeat words and
I became very conscious on my habit of cursing. I made several resolutions
to stop, but I could not. This began to really bother me.
Debbie finally invited us to attend a special service at the Lehigh
Valley Baptist Church. As the pastor preached, it was as if he knew
what we needed to hear. He showed us from the Word of God how foolish
it is to accumulate material possessions and to neglect one's own
soul. He showed how Jesus Christ had made provision for our souls
to have eternal life, if we would repent of our sins and receive him
as our personal Savior.
That morning, we both went forward at the invitation at the end of
the service and Susan received Jesus Christ as her personal Savior.
I also prayed a prayer, but I was not sincere. I just wanted to get
out of there.
The following Wednesday, Susan went to the church prayer meeting.
I came home from a class that I was taking at a community college
and I was in our home alone. I went to the bedroom and knelt by our
bed. At that time, I saw myself as a sinner, worthy of the harsh judgment
of a holy God. On that day in February 1982, I saw that my shallow
trust in a religious system was sending me to an eternity in hell.
That day, by faith, I repented of my sin and asked the LORD Jesus
Christ to save me and become the Lord of my life.
Today my wife and I know that when we die, we will be with our Lord
in heaven - not because we are better than anyone else, but because
Jesus paid our sin debt on the cross of Calvary. Back in February
of 1982, we both individually trusted in what God has said in his
Word, not in what man puts forth in his false religious systems. No
longer do we trust in our infant baptism, church membership, or good
works that we might do, to get us into heaven. The Lord Jesus Christ
is our only hope for life after death.
Because of our acceptance of Jesus Christ, Susan and I both have a
purpose to our lives that we never had before. We see regular answers
to prayer, and we experience the real joy of sharing with others the
message of salvation through Jesus Christ. Both Susan and I have surrendered
to full time service for the Lord. I am currently serving as an assistant
pastor at the Lehigh Valley Baptist Church.
While it is true that half of today's marriages end in divorce, it
is also true that half DO NOT. Thanks to a living Savior, Susan and
I have discovered the positive half of that truth - and so can you.
Why I believe in God, can be traced to a single event. Subsequently,
it has been reinforced many times over in my life, but this one event
is the most important, because of course, w/o it, there would be no
others.
Like any good story, some background is required.
I grew up in a family not particularly religious. My grandmother
on my mom's side is very devoted; hardly ever goes to church, but
prays every night. She also made us say our prayers every night before
we went to bed. I went to about three or four Sunday school classes
when I was about 10 years old. Mom thought it was important for us
to go to church on Sundays, but as you are about to learn, that quickly
fell by the wayside.
My dad was an alcoholic and seriously deranged. He would routinely
beat my mother and hospitalize her. Finally she left him when I was
about 10. (or 11, maybe 12) This period in my life (8 years to 13)
is very fuzzy to me. My memory is a mix of terror, elation, depression
and confusion. When my mom left, my brother, sister and myself had
to pretty much fend for ourselves. We lived for about a year and a
half without her. During this time my father would bring home various
women. Some would hang around for a while, some only the night. Some
were whores, some looking for a "sugar-daddy," and some
just looking for a place to sleep. Sometime in this period, my dad
decided that us kids needed looking after. So he had his mom, my grandmother
on his side of the family, come to stay with us. This was the worst
thing that could happen. Today, as an adult, (with counseling) I know
why my father was an abusive, twisted individual. I was about to suffer
the same treatment he did when he was a child. I'll just say, I survived.
Mom grew up in a very abusive home. Her father (and his mother, my
great-grandmother) were VERY abusive. The stories my mom and uncle
tell of their childhood are very disturbing. Mom had to endure this,
and as a result, developed a certain personality/behavior. As an adult,
she developed an "addictive personality." That's a polite
way of saying she conducted her life, not by reason and sanity, but
by fear and obsessions.
By 1978, my mom had remarried a man 10 years older than me. (I was
18.) We had for the most part "shaken" my dad, by moving
from house to house, over and over, through-out Houston. (We were
on about our 40th house.) My step dad was an okay guy, but guess what?
He grew up in a twisted home too! He had been out of work for about
a year, and my mom was all over him every night about getting a job.
The electricity had been turned off, water off, gas off and we were
4 months behind in our rent. Finally he couldn't take it, and left.
When my stepdad left, it really angered my mom. This was his way
of escaping her control and she didn't like it one bit. So she took
off after him. (This was during the time of no lights/no water/no
heat.) She was gone for about 10 days, and again we kids were left
to ourselves. This was normal, and wasn't all that bad, as we were
now young-adult/old teenagers. My sister and I were working and bringing
home some money, so that's what we lived off of. (We both worked after
school.
We lived many miles from the schools we attended. Mom felt it was
required to live in a "good" neighborhood (regardless whether
or not we could afford it. :) ) and that it would be a good thing
if we kids could stay in the same school. Mom was right. Even though
we would move as often as 4 times in a year, she always tried to keep
us in the same school so that we had some consistency in our life.
This sometimes required that we travel quite a distance to get to
school. I had always worked. I had amassed enough money to buy a car.
Actually three or four cars, but ALL money earned by any member of
the household went into the "general fund." The theory was
the when we kids got old enough, "the family" would buy
us a car, pay for school, etc. Of course theory and reality didn't
quite meet. Each morning I would drive myself, brother and sister
to school. My sister and I attended the same high school and my brother's
Jr. High was right next to the high school. At the end of each day,
I would then round up my siblings and drive them home. I worked some
days, my sister worked every day, and so my brother had to find something
to do. This wasn't a problem as he was very popular.
This one particular day, (a Monday) I wasn't working. I got out of
school at 2pm and had some time to burn. That past weekend, I had
been out in my car "street-racing" for money. While this
may sound bizarre, my stepdad was really big into hot rods and we
built a pretty fast car for the money. (I had contributed over $10,000
[at $2.35/hour plus tips] to the family during the past several years,
so I had paid for it.) I would "street-race" for money and
turn over the "winnings" to the family or use it for lunch
money. It seemed normal at the time. :)
That weekend I had a race and the jerk didn't pay. This resulted
in a tremendous chase and fight. We (my little brother, my best friend,
and myself) chased these guys for over 30 minutes and it was pretty
wild. To this day, my brother and I talk about it. Since I had some
time to burn (because I was waiting for my sister to get off work)
I decided to go back and "trace" our route.
So I started my little journey where the race had started and burned
away about an hour doing nothing but driving around wasting gas, trying
to remember where we went, and then, what I was doing. :)
Pretty soon I realized that I needed to get on my way to pick up
my sister. I was on Gessner and about to go to the freeway (I-10)
and then directly to my sisters place of work. But when I came to
the light at Memorial Drive, something strange happened. I was going
to go proceed through the light and directly to the freeway, (at this
point on Gessner you can see I-10 from the intersection at Gessner
and Memorial). But that didn't happen. When the light turned green
I turned right. I can't even tell you why. I just did. My hands were
turning on the wheel without my brain doing the directing, but I had
this "feeling" as I my hands were going hand over hand,
turning the steering wheel. It was as if another set of hands were
on top of mine, moving them across the steering wheel. I was now on
Memorial Drive and I remember thinking, "Well this is okay, Memorial
runs almost parallel to I-10 and besides I like looking at all the
incredible houses. (Memorial is the ritziest part of Houston.) So
there I go, driving down this road with million dollar houses and
million dollar lawns and million dollar cars. I drove for quite awhile
and soon realized this road was meandering all over the place. Time
seemed to be going by at an alarming rate. I realizee I was in trouble
if I wanted to get to my sister and pick her up on time. It seemed
Memorial was moving away from the freeway, not converging toward it.
I decided I needed to find a cross street that connected the two and
get on the freeway and be on my way.
I passed a street on my left that looked good, but I had doubt in
my mind. So just went by it. All of a sudden the right front tire
of my car started to pull right.
Background info again. The previous several weeks had seen really
bad rain storms. Houston is known for this. During one of these storms,
I had to drive through a flooded section of the road to get to school
and water found it's way up into the wheel bearings on my car and
destroyed the bearings. This occured during the time my step dad was
away and I had to try and fix them myself. I wasn't sure what I was
doing and didn't have any guidance, so I called one of my step dad's
friends, Jerry. Jerry worked at a auto parts place and was a good
friend of my step dads since high school. They used to hang out together
when they were kids. I called Jerry, explained the situation, and
he said he'd get me the parts. I worked on the right front bearing
and thought I had it fixed. Then a few days later the left side froze
up. I tried to repair it and then the right side froze up again. I
went thru this several times, destroying the bearings in the process,
when finally I had to call Jerry and tell him I didn't know what I
was doing and asked for
help. So he came over and helped me do it right. Unfortunately I had
already done serious damage to the spindles. We did the best we could
(with a file and sandpaper) but the spindles were in bad shape. I
didn't have the money to replace them, so we did our best and hoped...